Float On

Here’s a weird fact about me: I love white water rafting.  I do not love lazy rivers.  It makes no sense.  White water rafting is expensive, requires life jackets, helmets, paddles, and usually scheduling with a company or a guide.  It also usually requires travel.  Lazy rivers, on the other hand, can be found at […]

Ode to the Girl Dad

My husband and I have three daughters: the oldest is almost five, the next is almost two, and our bonus baby is almost born. He is a certified Girl Dad, and even has the shirt to prove it. I grew up with a sister, no brothers, so a female-dominated household is my normal. My husband […]

Through Her Eyes

My body has been both my friend, my enemy, and somewhere in between. My mind and body are usually at some sort of tense stalemate, like roommates bound by a lease agreement but not much else. I’m proud of and grateful for how my body grew and nourished two (going on three) babies, and while […]

An Update

This blog has been unusually quiet these last few months–particularly after I declared regular blog writing as an intention for 2021. I told myself that this was my year of celebration, my year of defiant joy and celebration. We’ve survived the worst of it, I told myself. It’s got to get easier from here. Early […]

20 Things I Learned in 2020 (Part One)

1. I am resilient This pandemic has not been my first WTF moment of my mid-thirties.  Remember the time I left my dream job, moved across the state while very pregnant, had a baby, knew almost no one, and also my dad, grandma, and aunt all died suddenly within six months?  Plus an ER trip […]

The Longest Night

Someday soon, we all will be together…if the fates allow.Until then,we’ll have to muddle through somehow…So have yourself a merry little Christmas now. If there were ever a lyric for the holiday season of 2020…that would be it. Sung mournfully by Judy Garland, it brings me to tears every time. Tonight is the winter solstice, […]

Call me old-fashioned, but…

I love Christmas cards. I love sending Christmas cards. I start thinking about ours as early as September. This year I printed ours on November 1. I picked out holiday stamps in person (masked!) at the post office. I wrote out each individual address with a metallic Sharpie on a bright red envelope. I stared […]

Ten Questions To Settle Your Anxious Heart

A few weeks ago, I was in a funk. I just couldn’t seem to get myself out of it. Finally I sat down and thought deeply about what practices have helped me find peace in the past and what is bringing me joy now. This was the result. Here are ten questions I ask myself […]

I lost my faith, but it’s okay

I think I’ve lost my faith.  There–I said it. I’ve lost faith itself–meaning, the ability to trust and hope in the unseen.  And I’ve lost my faith–my experience and participation in Protestant Christianity.  And I think it’s okay. I became a Christian when I was 12 or 13 years old.  I’m 34, nearly 35 now.  […]

The Race I Won But Didn’t Run

I turned over the heavy plaque in my hands, reading the inscription.  Half marathon relay.  First place.  I wasn’t sure I’d ever won first place in my life.  Except…I didn’t run that day. The race kicked off that morning at 8am, at a nearby park.  I was new to running and I had been invited […]